Adorable

Salus

I know I don’t belong here
Sometimes I just close my eyes and disappear
And I can just feel and hear
Their voices flowing into my ear
It’s a place you can’t see with your eyes
Open your mind and it will arise
A third factor that makes you feel wise
And when it withers, a part of you dies

Game

It’s funny
This desire numbs me
Only rage is coming upon, for we
Cannot have a chance number three
I’m the one who’s guilty
Cause honey, that’s the thing with me
I blind myself so I don’t have to see
And now, there’s death in my eyes
Passionate hatred in my mind
I’m longing so to see you cry
I wonder if I’ll give in or try
I know I am the one to blame
But you should admit you’re not the same
Such a weak and desperate young boy
Playing with me like a fucking toy
You’ve claimed you’re wild but you’re so easy to tame
Hope you’re happy, now put an end to this game

Flowers And Scabs

I can feel the smell
Of lovely early spring
It’s putting me through hell
Cause I miss everything
To feel sick yet well
A bittersweet feeling
No air, no words to tell
Cause this is breathtaking

Giving In

All the thoughts you learned to ignore
Forbidden emotions of which you want more
They’ll break out one beautiful day
And chase your common sense away
You’ll think you’ve forgotten who you are
Truth is this is the closest you’ve ever been to you, by far
And even though you’re weak, you feel so strong
And everything feels right even though it’s wrong 

All Alone

A sky colored in red, purple and pink. Just a few, thin clouds. Almost flawless. Yet no one bothered to look up this time – they were all in a hurry. Except for one pair of big, brown, lonely eyes. These colors were mesmerizing, yet they were all missing it. As the sun was descending, disappearing beyond the horizon, all she could think of was how lonely it felt to be the only one observing this perfection. Water tickled her bare feet, she looked down at the ocean before her. The waves were growing bigger every minute. A cold but soft wind stroked her skin, she imagined how the whole earth was breathing. And the people behind her didn’t even notice, they didn’t have time to stop. 

Of course they didn’t. A Friday evening wasn’t the time for loneliness. All that mattered was finding someone to not be lonely with. To find cheaper thrills. She would have done it too – if she had a choice. She was as frightened as anyone else to be alone. She was scared of all the people rushing by behind her, noticing her loneliness. Did they even? The fear and the shame – she just wanted to hide. Just so that she could be all alone, without the whole world watching her.

The water felt warm, so she hurried and took her shorts, her t-shirt and her sandals off. Put it all in a little pile – she had never been organized. One breath, and she jumped off the dock. The warmth of the water disappeared immediately and she hurried up to the surface to gasp for air, only to meet a cold and bitter wind that felt like it was biting her lungs. She turned towards the horizon and started moving her arms and legs towards the depth. The sun was gone, and the water was no longer reflected by the warm colors of the sky, it was now dark and grey. Eventually, her body felt a bit sore so she went back to the dock and her clothes. The wind felt even colder and more aggressive when she escaped the water. She stood there and drip-dried for a while. Put her clothes on. Her bracelet was missing. Things just kept disappearing from her life like that. 

...From Your Center

Close your eyes
And pray you’ll become blind
Pretend that you don’t see through my lies

At the edge of frustration
You keep shouting and I know why
I apologize for my lack of dedication

It was your choice to close the door
Figured I’d lock it for our sake
So what are you turning mad for?

Want me to tell what you want to hear?
I’m not here for your satisfaction
I guess I’ll turn my back and disappear